I have anxiety disorder and take medication daily (citalopram). While this keeps my anxiety at bay most times I have slip ups and have bad panic episodes when I'm in a stressful situation that I can't handle. In these situations I find myself picking an area on my thighs to scratch at and won't stop until I have broken my skin And caused an open wound. I hate the pain I cause after it but when I'm doing It to my self it's kind of like something else to Focus on if that makes sense? Anyway it causes marks that I then have to hide. I do this by getting changed in private and not letting my other half see me anytime other than fully clothed.. Even sex is in the dark.. But last week after a bad situation I did it again but this time he caught me..iv spoke to him about it and he's begged me to stop and if im in a bad way to come clean and hell support me through it..but he then used the words "self harm" and I hate that.. I don't think what I'm doing is self harm...its a way of coping and taking my mind out of the stressful situation.. Has anyone been in a position like this that understands what mean when I say its a way of coping and not self harm? Its just those words he used has made me feel awful and as if I need to seek help when I thought I was doing fine