I just wanted to speak to someone with similar thoughts and feelings. I feel so alone. I have a 10 month old and dip in and out of periods of crying, suicidal thoughts, anger and irritability. Always feel low self esteem and that I’m a rubbish mum. I haven’t felt supported due to covid and sick of phone appointments and services being cancelled. I don’t know any other mums in my local area and feel like I’m going mad. Has anyone else had similar feelings during the pandemic? I just want to run away and have had thoughts on how I may kill myself, but then things get better for a while and I think I’ve got a handle on how I’m feeling before my mental health plummets again...