I suffer from severe anxiety and mild depression. Sometimes the anxiety eases off for a while and then I can feel the depression. I’m on medication and often have spells when my mental health is pretty good.
At the moment it’s really bad, my anxiety is so bad my gp has prescribed diazepam to help me out in the short term. It’s absolutely shit, every time it happens I think I can’t do this again. I do have good reason to be anxious at the moment.
Anyway. I was listening to The Archers today and two characters were talking, I was only loosely listening. One character said something along the lines of ‘it’s really hard when the only voice you can hear is the one in your head’. It stopped me in my tracks! The only voice I listen to me is the one in my head, the narrator that is me! Telling myself ‘what if this happens, what if that happens, if it does I won’t be able to cope, I can’t do this, I’m not good enough, I’m not thin enough, strong enough or capable enough’. I don’t listen to what others say to me.
I’m not sure I’m making sense! Does this make sense to anyone?