Having a weird existential crisis this morning. It’s happened before but each time it feels less like I’m gonna get out of it. I’m very lucky and fortunate, I have great family, some good friends, a dog and am physically healthy, enjoy walking swimming etc. Have a good job, am in the process of buying my own house. But I feel like there’s no point, questioning whether everything I do is just for others approval or respect, and honestly, suicidal thoughts start creeping in because feeling like this is just really miserable and makes me spiral into self loathing (too fat) and feelings of complete despair. I’ve had therapy in the past and I take antidepressants but still this happens every now and then. It feels really bad today