Hi, I'll try and keep this as brief as poss. I had my 3rd child 8 weeks ago. My other two children are DS1 10 and DS2 8, I had a baby girl for my third - dream come true.
My DH was in a hit and run accident last November and as a result has been left with a paralysed right arm. The decision to have a 3rd baby came as a direct result of the accident. It made us both re-evaluate what was important in life, having come so very close to losing DH. I was fortunate that I fell pregnant very quickly. This was to be our silver lining to the awful awful accident.
DH is AMAZING, he's in hospital as we 'speak' having his 4th surgery this year to sort out the multiple fractures in his arm. He is such a strong strong person, and has taken everything in his stride. He is so determined and does almost everything himself, including doing his own shoelaces with his left hand (he was right handed).
Since having Niamh, it has become more and more apparent how having a paralysis is affecting what he is able to do with her. He was SUCH a hands on Dad with our other two boys. It is breaking my heart that he is unable to do the same with our new baby. DH is absolutely smitten with her.
So that's a brief introduction about my DH, now me..
I have been through so much this past year, I thought my DH was dead when he didn't come home from his motorbike ride, I had to wait an hour and a half before the police phoned me to tell me he'd been airlifted to hospital. I remember vividly thinking, if he's dead, I hope it happened quickly and he wasn't in too much pain, then I imagined him lying cold in a ditch dying.
I was so relieved when I received the call to say he was alive. In the past year, we've dealt with the news of his prognosis, brachial plexus injury. At best, he will achieve some function of his arm down to his wrist, but he will never regain the use of his hand or fingers. This, we just took in our stride. DH's attitude is.. it could have been worse, at least I'm still here. Amazing man. We've dealt with his pain, countless complications with infection, fractures not united, bones snapping again, emergency surgeries. All whilst I was pregnant.
It seems that since having my DD I have fallen to pieces. I had mild PND after my DS's, but NOTHING compared to this. Currently, I am waking very early in the morning, sometimes 3, sometimes 4am and I cannot get back to sleep. DD is fantastic at night, so she isn't waking me. I feel very much on edge and have been having awful nightmares. Not specifically about the accident. But they;re always involving dreadful situations, like fires or bombs etc.
I was prescribed Lofepramine nearly 8 weeks ago and I don't think it's helping me very much. I have finally been offered some counselling which will start in a couple of weeks, so that's good. But I was thinking of going back to my GP on Monday and asking to change my medication.
What would be the best drug to ask for. I have researched Prozac and Citalopram.
Help
And sorry for the long one in the end