Re-starting Citalopram for the 5th time

[KrustyTheKat]

I suffer from severe anxiety, panic disorder and agoraphobia (amongst other conditions). These conditions have gotten considerably worse over the past few years.
I was successfully taking 20mg of citalopram from 2015 to 2017, they were a life saver. I was able to work, go on holiday and lead a relatively normal life.
Things deteriorated in 2017 and I was told to come off the Citalopram by a psychiatrist and then began the long road of trying nearly every medication under the sun.
None of them helped.
I am now desperate and I’m now trying to get back on Citalopram as I know it helped me in the past.
This is my 5th time trying to get back on it and every time the side effects get worse and worse.
Has this happened to anyone before?....why is my body reacting like this?... it is currently 3am and I am in the midst of an awful anxiety attack and feel sick to my stomach.

I started them again in January for the 4th or 5th time. Initially on 10mg a day until mid February then 20mg a day. Felt not great until end of March (nausea and increased anxiety) but feeling much better now with a lot less nausea now (always got nausea and gave up on the tabs). Good luck x

@Monkeytennis97 Thanks for your reply.

That seems like a long time for the side effects to go. I don’t think I have the strength to do it.

I also read somewhere that the more times you take anti depressants the less effective they become. Not sure how true that is but it’s not making me want to co tiniest but I feel so desperate for some relief.

@KrustyTheKat it has been tricky and I felt like quitting a few times but fortunately was supported well by my gp and DH. Hopefully the side effects won't go on so long for you. I knew I just had to keep going as I didn't want to feel as I did in January again. Sending you strength x

@Monkeytennis97 Thank you for your encouragement