Please talk to me about intrusive thoughts I am losing my mind again

[nevernotstruggling]

This started when dd1 was born. She's 11 now. It faded and re emerged when dd2 was born but I was kind of ready for it and I could recognise it and kind of dismiss it quite easily. Dd2 is nearly 9.

I've never been completely clear of them but the last couple of years they have crept back. I had a stress meltdown last year and raging anxiety. I had 4 months off work. The anxiety is really much better now but the intrusive thoughts are horrendous. They centre around dd2 being hurt now and I am fixated on this and mentally I really feel quite ill.

I'm not listing what I think about as it's grim and triggering. I feel so unhinged right now

Sorry you are feeling bad. Have you had treatment?
The psychological treatment for this usually is about allowing the thoughts to be there and not fighting them, trying to just stay with the distress until it calms down. Don't try to suppress the thoughts or push them away. You are not the same as your thoughts.