Hi, this might be a long post but I have a lot of issues, anger etc building up and no one to talk to or understand. I am currently 20 weeks pregnant with my second daughter and I am struggling a lot with mental health during this pregnancy. My partner and i enjoyed a drink before I got pregnant and when I found out I was pregnant he said he wanted to have one last night with the boys and then settle down and save money etc to get ready for this baby, I thought this sounded perfect but he has done the complete opposite. This is his first child as my daughter is from a previous relationship and I get he is probably nervous but he is drinking way more than he ever would before I found out I was pregnant. I am struggling as I don't have many friends, the friends I do have just go out for drinks etc so I am never invited anymore, and then at home my partner sits and just drinks until stupid o'clock in the morning leaving me in bed by myself. I can't sleep well in a bed by myself and I don't know why, I wake up constantly when I'm alone but I really couldn't tell you why. He always says to me he will be through in half an hour etc and then I fall asleep and wake up a couple hours later and he still isn't in bed, I'll then ask him if he's coming to bed and he responds 'I've nothing to get up for so stop moaning, I'm allowed to enjoy a drink' which yes I get but what's the need in staying up till 5-6am drinking?? I'm concerned he won't be able to just pack it in when the baby is here and I've told him my concerns and he says I don't need to worry. Last week I had a literal breakdown as I was pretty much alone all weekend, everyone else out having fun together drinking in the sun, I am sat in alone waiting on my boyfriend finishing work and he comes home with beers, was literally the last thing I wanted to see and then basically had a breakdown, said I feel like he rubs it in my face, he doesn't even try to have a good time without drink and he said he is still here with me what's the issue?? I just don't think he sees my perspective at all, it's no fun what so ever to watch people drink etc when you are pregnant and pretty much forgot about. Anyway today is my birthday and of course he's taken the complete mick with drinking and I've cried since about 6pm because Im so tired of this and he knows how I feel and how it upsets me but here we go again. And again he's made me feel like I'm a moody bitch by saying I'm allowed to still have fun, stop moaning. Yes have fun but in moderation!!!! I just can't deal anymore, it's making me resent him and I don't want to but I can't keep saying how I feel for it to fall upon deaf ears!!
Sorry for the long rant