I don’t know what to do but I feel like I’ve failed at life. Divorce came through last week, and like everything that hurts I just shove it away and pretend it never hurt at all. I have a job that I like but I’m constantly convinced they will suddenly hate me. I started a postgrad qual and it’s giving me so much anxiety and has completely raced my fear of failure.... with my children to take care of there’s no way I can give it the full attention it needs so everything’s a scrape through and it’s battering my self esteem. Speaking to someone tonight has made me realise I somehow need to get comfortable just being me, without the bells and whistles and extra activities etc. I think I try to gloss over everything I feel I’ve failed at, then if that doesn’t go right I can’t really cope. Anxiety is becoming very physical with stomach upsets, hot and cold temps, feeling very tearful. I just want to lock the world away and pretend none of it exists, just relax and be with my children and not feel so much pressure. I’m not sure what I want from this post, but I haven’t slept for two nights and I’m sCared and alone.