Anxiety is BACK

[Suitcasegotregrets]

With a vengeance. I just want it to stop. It’s so debilitating- it’s linked to starting a new job tomorrow and I really am regretting taking it. I feel overwhelmed already and like I just want to go to bed and ignore the world. I don’t know how I’m going to act normal. It’s such a struggle to just do everyday as it is. I feel like I am on the floor already, and now I have to do enthusiastic and engaged. My brain also won’t settle, it’s all over the place.
Then I feel pathetic, because that’s life isn’t it and other people manage all sorts of things and do not sink. I feel like I am sinking.

Can you see a Dr somehow today and get a prescription for a betablocker like Propranolol? They work immediately - and stop anxiety dead in its tracks for a few hours. It's not like other anxiety meds which need a week or so to kick in.

I could try tomorrow but I don’t think I can take them because I’m insulin dependent. I’ve just had a quick look at it seems they can mask hypo symptoms.

I would so love a break from it, it’s exhausting.
I cannot really remember normal anymore, but I’m pretty sure I didn’t used to feel like this.

I'm sorry if that's not helpful then. But speak to your GP to see if there's some medication which you could take.

Of course you're exhausted - anxiety is dreadful & it's a vicious circle... the more anxious you feel the more worried you are about feeling anxious. For the time being you need to know that you're not the only one who feels like this - it's very common. Try not to think this is a hopeless situation, it's not. I know you need to get through tomorrow though... just remember that on day 1 no one has any expectations of you really at all except that you listen. Even if you don't want to be there in he long term, it's better if you can see what it's like first - don't walk out or not show up. Just turn up, smile and see how it goes. I feel for you, I've been there.