Hi all. So I've been monophobic for years. If you don't know what it is, it's definitely not a common fear/phobia. It's when you get extremely anxious left on your own. In my case I have a panic attack and I cannot be left on my own even at home I know someone is always there. I've tried lots of different therapies and still have one left to try.
Anyway I quit my job for a job at a care home and they were really quite awful when I got anxious. I suffer from low confidence and self esteem so it knocked me down further. I got a job recently in retail. The store is huge and I just feel so stupid as I should of known I am not comfortable in huge stores but after going from a job I was comfortable in but hated to another, I've had to go on universal credit and desperate not to be on it and to work.
This new workplace has been brilliant with me and they said how well I did in interview. But all they know is I don't like being on my own and said there's always people in the building in total 50 staff. The problem is, I just went along with it so as not to trouble them. They don't know the extent of my monophobia. They don't know I will have a panic attack if I'm asked to get stock upstairs or go to the back of the store.
I feel so stupid and don't want to waste their time. They have been amazing with me but i feel they can do better. I would love to work there but I don't think they would be able to support me all the time understandably. I'm meant to be going into tomorrow and I will, and will tell them the extent.