Derealisation/Depersonalisation

[GerryManderson]

Does anyone else suffer from this? I'm a lifelong sufferer.

I know the worst thing is to dwell on the specific feelings of our episodes...but I'd like a space to be open about how shit this disorder is! Or any random thoughts about it. Nobody irl knows I suffer from it, I've hidden it my entire life. I think they'd be very shocked if they knew!

I just went for a walk for the first time in weeks and was having a lovely time. Turned to come back home and got hit by a DP episode that lasted till I was a few steps from home :( Just wanted to cry when I got back.

My period always causes me to have episodes. The day or two before, then during, and for a couple of days after it's finished. These are probably the worst ones I have, I guess it's all those messed up hormones! Gah, hate it.

Wouldn't call myself a sufferer as such as these events aren't regular but I have experienced this.
First episode was after I gave up drinking-about five years ago -and I remember sitting as a car passenger and feeling I just wasn't anymore- which as you'll know is absolutely terrifying when I'd never felt this way before.
My most recent episode was during a period of immense stress. I was walking down the street when I suddenly felt like I'd slipped away. I was walking around but I felt I was floating and I felt very tall. I also felt like I had some kind of veil over me and almost like I was invisible. I did panic and started to make my way home. When I arrived I was back to normal.

Hello, yes I really struggle with this. I hate how it has control over me. I get episodes of it to varying degrees, but usually at least twice a week. I feel really floaty and like I’m behind a pane of glass, or like my limbs aren’t my own and I have no control over them and I’m completely trapped in my own body.
I’m too embarrassed to explain it to my DH, I’m not sure he’ll understand.

Yes I do terribly! It's the worst of my anxiety symptoms x