Name change for this, it's so personal and I have no where to vent.
DH had a psychotic attack /nervous breakdown a few years ago. The build up to this event was absolutely horrendous. Short of it, armed Police arrived to take our guns away, he was sectioned and placed in a secure unit. I have been left to pick up the pieces ever since. Is this the way Mental health treatment is in the UK now? Where do I turn? Really I'm sinking here.
He was released from hospital after a few weeks, some of which was suicide watch. With no medication and instruction to see his GP. He came out of the hospital a shell of himself. Cried solidly for days on end. He'd been involved in group therapy sessions and revealed that he had been sexual abused by his mother. His mother was indeed a bitch from hell, this had never been mentioned before.
He didn't make an appointment to see his GP and the Mental Health Team didn't keep their 'at risk' appointments. In the weeks/months that followed he tried to hang himself, became hyper vigilant, believed everyone was out to get him. He ran from home. Crashed our car. Eventually, after a very difficult night and calls to 111, we saw his GP and he was prescribed anti depressants and anti psychotics. His appt with a Psychiatrist took weeks to come through. He had one appt, no more were deemed necessary. I've seen the report. He had two visits from a mental health nurse.
I've had it! He is a nightmare to have around. Suffers rages, anxiety and mental collapse frequently. He swings between my kind DH of old and this person that I just don't recognise. He isn't violent but is a muscular build, his energy is intimidating when he rages. Before first lockdown, the GP spoke to him about reducing his medication, which he has done. He has several triggers; angry woman (his mother was extremely passive aggressive), perceived slights or questioning of his integrity and strong beliefs in religion (his mother insisted he read the bible as a young child). These few years have destroyed my loving DH, his career, our relationship and our marriage. To the outside, we look relatively normal. We manage on a daily basis. I deal with his swings in and out of normality as best I can. But this isn't a life for either of us. Where can I get him help?
His GP is currently telephone only and doesn't know the half of it. I called the GP and he insisted they needed his permission to discuss. Before lockdown, I fell to pieces in the GP surgery. Explained some of the things we were gong through and I was sent home with HRT! He is so tortured by life. Let down. This can't be our new normality. Today, I need permission to leave our 25yr marriage because this is killing me, as it is him. I'm done. I'm tired of relying on the Samaritans for my sanity. He needs expert help so badly, how can I help him access it?