I've been struggling with my own brain a lot lately.
Left an abusive relationship 6 years ago (since met someone and very happily married) and I obsess about it, even to the point of dreaming about him several times a week. I catch myself doing certain things to lovely DH that I did with him, seeking approval, being petrified he may be in a bad mood with me etc (for the record, DH is fabulous and knows all about my past).
I drink too much, have put on a lot of weight and hate the way I look. I struggle with motivation for anything other than food or a bottle of wine. Don't want to see friends or family and am already backing out of plans now we can start to meet up.
I'm basically really fucking miserable without 100% understanding why. I have good friends, a great relationship, wonderful family etc etc. But I struggle to get off the sofa most days.
I've self referred for therapy via Mind in my borough. What should I expect to happen next? I'm not always the best at opening up verbally.