How long did PND last for you?

[Babyaug2020x]

I’ve had major depressive episodes since around the age of 12, so PND was kind of inevitable eventhough I had been doing great for 5 years prior to getting pregnant (I’m now 27 with an 8mo)

I really thought my PND would be improving by now but instead I can feel myself getting sucked further and further in and losing myself more and more.

I stopped taking my sertraline as it was giving me horrible side effects and I don’t get on with other medications I’ve taken in the past either, but my mood has crashed dangerously and I don’t know what else to do. I thought I’d be better by now.

I don’t really have anyone to talk to and my partner doesn’t understand, he tells me I’m being horrible to him if I’m quiet and need some time to myself and it makes me feel even worse. My son has been having a difficult few weeks with super early wakings which I don’t think is helping (I deal with all the morning wakings so I’m exhausted)

Does anyone have any advice ?

OP, how long ago did you stop the Sertraline, and did you wean off gradually or just stop outright? Trying to deal with severe PND unmedicated is very risky, and a rebound depression from stopping medication may be making it worse.
Please see your GP and discuss treatment options. There are many other antidepressants, and not all of them are SSRIs - you may find one that suits you better.
A short course of ECT can also be lifesaving in severe (suicidal) PND, but maintenance medication is still needed for a while afterwards.
You could also benefit from CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy), but there is a long waiting list. You could try some of the online CBT that you can work at by yourself, but only as an adjunct to seeing your GP.
Finally, you need some real life support. I know this is more difficult during lockdown, but your DH needs to be more supportive, and you should confide in family and close friends so they are aware and can help where possible. Also tell your health visitor.
I hope you are soon on the mend, OP. PND is a horrible illness, hitting at a time when you are vulnerable, sleep deprived and struggling with a baby. But with good treatment and support, you will come through this and be able to enjoy life again. Best wishes for your recovery.