Feeling wobbly today

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I've been feeling so much better recently, since the ads kicked in, but the last two days I feel as if I've fallen back down into a hole again. I know I should be glad that I'm generally feeling better, but in a way it seems to make the black days feel worse. DD is back to nursery today too, and I'm dreading putting on that false face that I have to show to others to pretend that everything's fine and life is wonderful.

I just feel like crying today, I feel like curling up in a big useless heap on the floor and staying there all day. Since things started getting better, dh assumes that I'm fine and doesn't understand that I'm not. There are other people here who need support more than I do, I know I'm just feeling sorry for myself, but I just needed to tell someone how I'm feeling today otherwise I think I'll go mad.

You don't need to reply to this, I just needed to say it.

Am thinking of you mate! When i read the title i imediately thought 'lucky wobbly'!
My sis suffers with major depression and i know some days she doesnt want to get out of bed! Just allow yourself to have an off day, it doesnt make you a bad person! We all have off days. Make the most of your time without dd today! chocolate and a weepy always does it for me!!!!
You have my number if you fancy a chat im home all day ok.
Chin up! now wheres the chocolate?

Unfortunate choice of title ... . I know it's just an off day, I just wanted a bit of a moan and to get it off my chest. Which, being the ample proportion it is, is probably better off not being fed with chocolate.

I'll try and ring you later, Sam, once dd has stopped the major whinge-fest she's started this morning. Which doesn't help.

i felt wibbly wobbly a few weeks ago, and nobody thought to read sexual connotations into it

think you are allowed a few off days - just because you are on ADs doesn't mean that you aren't. i think depression is like any chronic type condition - like if you had backache, you might have a bit of a bad day once in a while. everyone, depressed or not, has days when they just want to go back to bed, which unfortunately doesn't tend to be a viable option with kids around! have you missed a tablet - i get like that when I miss a tab. or could be PMT?

if you continue feeling like this for a few weeks tho i would go back to the docs and look at your medication dosage.

i like csm's ideas of chocs/weepy movies? books? any change of distracting yourself with something nice?

Reading sexual connotations into it has at least made me smile. Thanks, MTS.

I know it's just a blip, I just needed to tell someone. The ads have really been helping, but feeling so much better means the bad days feel worse, if you see what I mean. And dh seems to think that because I'm feeling better that it's all plain sailing from here on in, and doesn't really understand when I say it's not.

I haven't missed any tablets - I'm paranoid about that - and don't really want to raise the dose again, 40mg has been suiting me a lot better but if I can help it, I don't really want to go on a higher dose.

I'm not even dressed yet - feel so stupid! I am going to go and have a shower, get dressed, then do something nice with my dd, see if she can cheer me up.

WWB I have days like that too. My ADs are working fabulously well for me, but some days I do feel really low for some reason. I think maybe they seem so bad because I panic that the ADs are losing their effectiveness and I may be on my way down again. But I always pick up, usually by the next day. And dont be worried about whether or not other people are more deserving of support because they may have more serious problems - I have heard that so often lately due to a certain thread, and it is tosh. Ofcourse you have a right to post and receive support, so does anyone who feels down, however temporary and for whatever reasons. Lots of hugs. xxx

I read a great article once about the writer Sally Brompton who had suffered from major depression. Even though she felt a hundred times better and must days were ok she still had the odd day when she felt very low. She said she had learnt to accept these days and try not to question them (so not go down the whole 'why do I feel like this'/ 'am I going downhill again'/'is it going to worse' ((which is something I know I do)) )
She would just do the absolute bare minimum and things that she absolutely had to do and then basically go to bed with a magazine and a bar of chocolate and write the day off. She said that by dealing with it like that it helped stop it building into something bigger.

Hope you're feeling better soon,
Kizziex

Thanks all. DD is now at nursery so I've got a little bit of breathing space for a while. I'm sure you're all right and that things will feel better tomorrow. I'm trying so hard to put a cheery face on, and it's really difficult sometimes.

Thank you xx

Know how you're feeling so sending you a big {{{hug}}}!

hi wwb, just wondering how it was going today?

Sorry I missed this wwb - how are you feeling now?

Hi, thanks for asking. I'm feeling quite a bit better today (thanks for cheering me up yesterday, wk, it was just what I needed!). I'm very tired, which doesn't help, but I've been out with my dd this morning mooching around the BullRing and I'm feeling much more positive. Sorry to have been such a whingebag yesterday, and thank you for being there.