I'm sorry I don't really know where to post this. I feel like I have reached the limit of what I'm capable of.
I separated from my husband last May, I have a three year old. In the last year I have sold our home, moved into a new one. I've spent most of the last year alone.
We share care of our daughter, so I'm either on my own with her. Or one my own. It's all or nothing.
I've mainly coped to be honest. Keeping busy aware that I'm not as patient as I should be. But mainly coping. Feeling exhausted. Like I can't see any future. But ok.
Last month I received an email regarding a formal disciplinary investigation against me at work. It was like being hit by a train. After a year of jyst about managing, and rebuilding the embers of my life, I genuinely panicked, and thought I was going to loose my job. All charges were dropped by works, as I hadn't done anything. But I've never even had an informal chat, let alone a formal disciplinary for misconduct.
And honestly I think it had just topped me over the edge. I feel like I have nothing to give. I feel exhausted all the time. Snappy, cross, lacking in any sort of patience. Close to tears. Like it had all just got too much.
I was put on the pill a month ago, to control the fact I was bleeding all month, and was anaemic and it was making me feel incrediblypoorly. It was a filler until they could get an appointment to fit a coil, which is happening this month. This won't be helping, as my body hates the pill.
Currently I'm hiding the bathroom from my 3 year old, with stinking headache, dreading the rest of the day. I'm exhausted and it's only 8.45. I cannot cope with her constant shouting at me. I don't know what I'm asking really, other than if anyone has any tips.
I had PND and anxiety when my daughter was born. I don't feel like the. I just feel exhausted. At the limit of what I can actually manage and cope. Every day for the last year has seemed like an exercise in survival.