Post natal depression

[Happythoughts123]

LO is 9 months. Was diagnosed with PND shortly after she was born. Not medicated (through choice) having weekly EMDR therapy with the perinatal psychologist.

I don’t know anyone who has had PND.
I have no one to confide in about how truly awful I feel inside. My husband and friends are supportive but I don’t feel like anyone really understands. I have a dark feeling with me all the time that I can’t explain.

Is there anyone out there also suffering with PND during covid isolation? Would be great to talk with someone who understands.

Hi @Happythoughts123
I have a 5 month old (first baby) and I have also been struggling with pnd since the birth. It's really tough isn't it, especially in these awful times with covid too.
I also don't want to take medication, how are you finding the therapy? Did you have depression/mh issues before you had your baby or has it just started?

I know how you feel, I constantly feel low, like a dark cloud hanging over me, it's horrible isn't it and I feel alone a lot of the time.

Sorry that's probably not very helpful but you're not alone, there are definitely other people struggling (like me!)

My baby is 6 months old and now I am struggling with PND. Some days are really horrible but I am on 100 g of Sertraline. My husband was extremely rude with me after the baby birth and used to judge me for caring the baby. I came to UK in February 2020 and then the COVID situation made my life so much miserable with less exposure to the new society. With zero support from husband I am now a patient who has slapped her little one four times. I feel so horrible and feel no less then a monster. Perinatal team used to visit me and today I have an appointment with a nurse who has already informed the local council that I am hurting my baby. Because of my religion I chose not to commit suicide. Sometimes I feel so helpless with my feelings.

@Happythoughts123
@Pumpkin97
@Mor1

Sorry to hear what your going through have you heard of the website pandasfoundation.org.uk which helps support mental health needs that you mention.

Also have a look at everymindmatters on NHS website.

@Mor1 I would also speak to your GP about your medication as it may need to be reviewed if you feel it's not working.
Social Services should help support you to look after yourself and your baby.

Reach out for support and discuss medication concerns @Pumpkin97 with your GP...it could be an option or temporary measure until your feel better again.

I had a terrible time with PND and anxiety after DS was born. He's 17 months now and I've only really felt like myself in the last couple of months. I'm on 40mg of citalopram which I find beneficial and I've had CBT too with the option of more if I need it.

Is there any particular thing you'd like to talk about?

@sugarlost thank you so much for sharing the websites names. I have googled them and they are amazing. I am planning to make a call to pandasfoundation tomorrow. perinatal team has contacted social services and two ladies visited me yesterday . They have booked appointment with paediatrician tomorrow to check health of my baby.

@Mylittlesandwich glad you're starting to feel like yourself.

@Mor1 you are welcome. Pleased that you have found the websites useful. I actually clicked on this thread by accident so it's good that I could help.

I hope your call went well.

You need support and time...there are brighter days ahead x

@sugarlost hi! I have been struggling with PND the last two weeks. Another medication has been prescribed and sertraline dose has also been increased to 150 mg. police also came today. The consultant has sent message to my husband that they are not stepping up this week but if my husband feels the need of it then he can call on the emergency number they have provided. I could not understand the meaning of step up in this context. Do you know meaning of step-up? I am also struggling with English language. Thanks

@Mor1 Hi, I hope your medication helps you feel better.
I hope the Police visit was ok.

I'm not sure about stepping up... would you feel comfortable asking the consultant or your husband. If not you could call the helpline I mentioned above and ask if they may know what it means.

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