In January 2020, me and OH moved out of London to a new city, for me to start a new job when our LO was 11 months old. But now, I feel incredibly lonely, have some issues with the area we moved to, and feel like such an idiot for moving us all and I am so lonely and sad.
We moved out of London for really valid reasons - asthma issues, tiny flat, noisy area, long commutes. I am a contractor and an old client offered me a role in a popular city where I went to university and dreamed of moving back to. On paper, it all sounded great for us as a family.
In reality, it's been really hard. The job had a lot of issues to start, although some are better now. We're living in an area of the city I didn't know before, and I feel sandwiched between main roads and industrial estates and quite depressed although our rented house is nice enough. We don't have a car and previously relied on public transport which has not been possible now so I feel stuck in a short walk of our house. The things I loved about the city as a student are quite different as a working parent.
People here have been really nice but it's been hard to make friends. Local schools here aren't great, LO has just turned 2 so that's starting to play on my mind. I miss my family very much - my parents have even offered to move closer once we're settled, but I'm not sure I want them moving here if it's not somewhere I feel I want to stay.
I talked to my husband but he feels like we haven't given it a proper chance yet, even though I am still miserable after more than a year. I felt early on like I'd made a mistake, and wish I had listened to my gut. We promised when we moved here it would just be to try for a year... but now we're here my husband is really reluctant to move again, I keep crying at how angry and regretful I feel. If I'd know he would stick his heels in after moving I wouldn't have been so willing to give it a try.
I have no friends here and I'm further from family and I feel like we have nothing going for us here. I keep trying to make an effort but I get so angry and upset at being stuck somewhere when I feel it was a mistake to come here.