Am I awful

[YoungStrawberry]

Lately I feel frequent resentment for my youngest son. He's only 7 months old... I don't understand what's wrong with me. I'm incredibly stressed out' dealing with mental abuse and chronic debilitating illness but there's no excuse for the things i think sometimes. On my worst days' I may even wish I never had a second child. it haunts me. Why am I so evil all of a sudden?

[Edited by MNHQ to remove real-life names]

You aren't evil.
It sounds like you're struggling and need support.
Tell us more about how you're feeling.

You absolutely are NOT awful, but it does sound as if your hormones may be out of whack, possibly PND? I am not a medical expert by any means! Please speak you your GP as soon as possible, it's really common to eel like this and they will be able to help.

You are not evil but it does sound like you may have PND.

Is the mental abuse by your partner? If so, do you have a safe place you could go and stay instead of with him?

If that is your sons real name, please report your post and ask MN to delete the name. Just hit report post button.
There is help out there, I'm sure you're not awful at all. It's a hard time to have young kids.