Say hello?

[crazyoldfool]

I'm starting a new job tomorrow. Not the worlds best job but it will help. So I'm sitting here on my own, marriage in tatters, covid, lonely, feel like I don't have anyone to talk to ever. Really worried about tomorrow and thinking about not going at all because it's all too much, I have barely spoken to anyone for months and when I do I pretend I'm ok. I know it's the same for everyone right now so I should shut up. Not sure what I want really, just someone to say hello and that everything will be ok.

Everything will be fine. Good luck for tomorrow, it’s a positive first step and who knows you may be good at it. Plan a little something nice to reward yourself with afterwards x

It will be OK. You're taking a big step but it's such an important one.

Good luck x

Thank you Nora, it's amazing how one person can make a difference. I know everyone is suffering right now.

It will be ok. I will be thinking of you so please come back tomorrow to let us know how your first day went!

We’ve all had a dreadful year, we need to be kind to ourselves. It’s very brave to begin something new so feel proud and be sure to tell yourself well done tomorrow.

You will be ok. I promise you will. Tomorrow is a new day. Wishing you all the luck in the world for the new job. Yes definitely plan a treat for yourself for the end of the day! You deserve a good day

@crazyoldfool I hope the new job goes well today

I went and did it, make-up on and everything, even lipstick under my mask, have to go again tomorrow for a few hours then next weekend. It went ok, they maybe think I'm a bit quiet, I don't know, I was talking and being nice, I have no idea how I came across.

Bu the mental strain is terrible. I can't stop my inner voice telling me I have made a fool of myself and everyone thinks I'm stupid. I know I will have 5 days of absolute torture imagining I will be sacked and humiliated and they will talk about me, that they all know each other and I'm not good enough. I had to come straight home and go to bed for a few hours and drink. I was not overly confident before lockdown but my mental health is really bad now. Is anyone else like this? I don't think I can face it.

Well done you! Please don’t torture yourself- each day you’re there come back and write down three things that went well - a compliment, a funny moment, a nice chat, whatever and just focus on telling yourself well done for those three things. You don’t have to be perfect, you don’t have to be popular, you just need to be you and if it’s the right place then they will value you just as you are. Just try your best and be friendly and that’s enough. I really admire you for trying something new, it’s not something I could do at the moment, I feel fragile and self critical too so I think you’re fabulous. Try and look for the positive- I’m sure they loved you.