Anger

[SepiaTonedLove]

After over a year attending weekly therapy, I'm starting to come around to the idea that I might have a case of repressed anger. I always believed I was a gentle person who rationalised and took others' points of view into account rather than getting riled but apparently - without a clue what's happening - it could be that really I get furiously angry and direct all that anger inwards.

Has anyone had a similar experience and found their way through to resolution? How can I learn to get angry? My therapist tries to draw it out sometimes but when he says I should be angry, I can only draw out sadness, defeat, urgency or frustration...

I totally get this. I am told I need a cathartic outpour and to really feel the rage to get it out of my system but it is walled off to me completely - I can see where it should be (metaphorically speaking) but there is a large void. What I get in its place is numb and empty.

Same here. My therapist has said a few times that he is relieved to see a bit of anger in me. I don't know the answer except to say keep going with the therapy. I have had a few outbursts but they are short lived and mostly directed at him for petty things like being late or saying something that upset me. He says this is a good sign of progress.