Exhausted and broken on Mother's Day

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Just that really. My DD (16) has shocking mental health, and I feel like I'm on permanent suicide watch. CAMHS are doing their best but no-one has a magic wand. School return hasn't gone as I'd hoped, maybe I got my hopes too high. I've been so strong for so long and last night held a bit of a meltdown. Sobbing on the floor in front of my daughter. Which has no doubt made her feel worse, and guilty. Now it's Mother's Day and I should put on my best smile and crack on, when I'd like to sob in bed for a few weeks. In reality the promises of breakfast being made for me, and a fun day planned will come to nothing even if I perk up, as DD will hardly be out of her room.
Anyone else having a crappy Mother's Day?

That sounds so hard. Mother's Day is hard for me and my mum this year because we lost her mum seven weeks ago. It's just a day but it makes all the emotions v raw doesn't it. It's very understandable you feel like that.
Your poor dd, I do hope things improve just a little for both of you. It's nobody's fault that this has happened and you cannot be strong all the time. Our kids mental health goes right to the heart of us, our deepest fears and most fundamental mothering instinct.
Get yourself a cup of tea and sit with something that gives you a little pleasure. And hold on. This will pass.
Lots of love to you.

Thank you that made my cry a little, doesn't take much! So sorry about your Mum's Mum, that must be very raw.
And now I have no shopping being delivered - I've had to cancel as I forgot to check out amendments, meaning I would have received 63 toilet rolls otherwise (notional order to reserve a slot, not stock piling!).

Here's hoping things improve!

Nightmare! Well at least you didn't open the door expecting nice food and find yourself overwhelmed with Andrex!