Forgive the oncoming pity party. I am so depressed it's unreal. I have ptsd, on medication but I am a total loss now. I cry at the drop of a hat. My poor dcs are suffering because I am simply useless. I panic when I have to go out, I am constantly on high alert and terrified.
My work is suffering too as I am just so unproductive. I am failing in every aspect of my life and I can't see a way forward. Every single night I look at my medication and wish I had the guts to take it all, washed down with whatever alcohol and just sleep and never wake up.
I don't really know what I want from this, maybe just somewhere to write it down