I'm crying for the first time in 5years, about something I thought I was over

[VictorianSqualor]

Why has this affected me like this today???
I often post on threads about bad childhoods and what I went through, always positively, talking about how I am over my experiences and trying to give other people hope.
I have been speaking to my cousin on facebook, who I ahdnt spoken to in about ten years, andit seems like telling someone real, who actually may not believe me because they know the other people involved has opened a can of worms, I cant stop crying, and am hoping its hormones (am 18weeks pregnant) but I really dont know.
I dont even know why I'm posting this, I just wanted to say something, to someone.

can't ignore and wanted to say hello

Oh poppet I don't think I can say anything useful but like Wotz I didn't want to ignore you. If you were here I'd make you a cup of tea.

[hugs]

Childhoods are sh^^e in my world too.

So sorry for you.

You can probably blame hormones to a point, but I don't think the past can ever been forgotten, and it is a shock when things flash back to the present and overwhelm you.
Good luck in reagaining your more 'normal' poise.
(I hope some of that makes sense.)

Thankyou, feel a bitbetter now, gonna try putting it down to just needing a good old cry, have composed myself nd tried to put mascara on wet eyelashes (harder than it sounds) now have DD's parents evening to go to, just hope I can keep it together then, I'm the kind of person tht once I cry anything can start me off, teacher might think I'm slightly bizarre!

I know that feeling. Just keep nodding.

Yes nod,nod nod
and smile...

I suppose at least I have a bump to show for the tears if they do decide parents evening is the time for it, she'd think is was even weirder if I wasnt pregnant, ah hormones, great excuse for everything

I hope it goes well. Glad you are still around.

It shows that you are still carrying an emotional burden. Sometimes when we do this we exhibit moods or times of feeling down for no apparent reason. We don't connect it with unresolved issues from childhood but that's often what it is.

Here's hoping you can go on talking about it until it doesn't hurt any more. You do reach that point you know but you have to get these things out of your system.

anorak, I honestly beleived I had, I speak about it all the time and it doesnt bother me in the slightest, I suppose I was shocked about crying more than anything!
The only thing I can think it could be now, as I'm fine again, is that it was not seeing/speaking to my cousins/nan etc rather than the things with my mum, which I honestly beleive I have dealt with, does that make sense?