Feel as if I am complete breaking point

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So about 8 weeks ago I fell and hurt my back quite badly in three places - nothing broken - soft tissue but still sore. I continued to work from home from my bed - really struggled but carried out. Last week we had someone in renewing our bathroom - they used silicone, which i know I am allergic to but usually only when I touch it. My face went up like a balloon and was very painful. I took a day off because I had been up all night with the pain but carried on working the day after. I have been very stressed in my job and have told my boss this but he just thinks its because I am working from home - it's not - I can see what the other members of staff are doing and I am doing at least triple - I work in a legal office. I have been doing a lot of extra hours to try and keep up, which i have managed. Anyway on Monday I had a complete meltdown. Got up, had a shower, got my files out for work and just flipped, couldn't stop crying. I phoned my boss crying my eyes out and told him I just couldn't do it. I told him I have a history of anxiety and depression and had taken antidepressants for at least 15 years - i have also had counselling. You wouldn't know it to see me - I come across as confident. Anyway I struggled through on Tuesday and Wednesday and took Thursday and Friday off. I am going through period of extreme anxiety and suicidal thoughts or am just so tired I can't keep my eyes open. I am crying writing this. I am supposed to work again on Monday - he really relies on me. I don't know what to do. I have a lot of support at home so no worries there. I managed a 10 minute walk yesterday which got rid of some of the adrehalin but my back was sore. Please can someone give me advice? Can a sudden allergy to someone make you have extreme anxiety?

First things first. Call your boss. Tell him you are under too heavy a load and can't cope with it. He needs to take some of the work off you. If he won't or can't, go to your GP and ask to be signed off. You need a break. Possibly you might need something for your allergy if it's still bothering you and maybe to go back on medication for your anxiety. I've never known an allergy to give you anxiety but anything is possible.

Then find a physiotherapist or chiropractor who is still open and book a visit to see if they can do something about your back pain.

I don’t think the allergy has caused the anxiety, more it was the last straw. People working at home through this seem to be on a much higher output than normal and quite often without proper breaks or that journey home where you destress.
It sounds like things have got on top of you and instead of putting you first you’ve just carried on. Your boss is more than competent to carry on with out you while you have a break. If he/she doesn’t support you then I agree with @nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut go and see your gp and be signed off.
Your employer has a duty of care to you as you do to yourself. I hope this weekend your family are giving you a break and looking after you.

Thank you so much for your replies. I think you are both right and i have just come to the end of my tether. During the first lockdown I only worked from home for about a month and then went in to the office, even though everyone else worked from home. I actually had Covid symptoms late March and worked from my bed with two hour sleeps in between. I always feel guilty taking time off and feel as if I will be putting pressure on everyone else. I think it's time I started thinking about myself. My family have been amazing xx