Burned Out

[NoseinBook3]

I know we are nearly at the end of homeschooling and I am so thankful.

Today I’ve hit a massive wall. At home I have two young children 5 and 6. They are lovely children but can be demanding. They keep fighting too.

When I go to work I work in mental health supporting others. It’s quite emotionally draining.
I can’t take any time off at the moment.

I really need a break from the kids and I hate saying that. I do need time to myself away from everyone sometimes (always have). I feel like such a bad mum saying that.

I feel utterly depressed with the hole situation today. I know it’s temporary and very situational. I know I will feel much better when they are back at school and then when things reopen and we can enjoy life.

I don’t even know why I’m posting here really except for the fact that this morning I can’t stop crying. I think my own emotional resilience is at an all time low.

I think I’m hoping that by acknowledging my feelings and actually writing it down it will help.

I think it’s the relentlessness of it all. Pre-Covid we were very lucky to also have grandparents support. That feels like years ago now.

Do you have reflective supervision at work? Is there psychological support? Is there an Employee Assistance Programme you can call for a talk through? I have found them varying degrees of helpful. Or s supportive colleague,/manager?

I’m right there with you @NoseinBook3
I felt like a hit a wall a few weeks ago - ran out of energy, positivity, resilience. Sobbed down the phone to my sister. Have been struggling since - no motivation to exercise, comfort eating, getting irritated more than usual - often at the kids (2&5). Today I went back to bed for a bit and ignored work as it was all too much. I resent every email that comes in and feel drained by my work- I work in professional services for a global organisation and it’s relentless. I rang our EAP and am speaking to HR tomorrow. Bit scared about it and worried about the impact on my team. But we have to look after ourselves. Hope you’ve been able to speak to someone - how are things today?