One of my parents is toxic. Not physically but mentally. This has been going on all my life, I never thought it really bothered me but I've recently come to the realisation that actually is has badly affected my mental health. I suffer from anxiety, depression, ocd and an eating disorder.
Some things include:
- saying negative things about my appearance. E.g I looked fat and disgusting and had let myself go (I was heavily pregnant)
- saying negative things about anything I don't.
- at one point of my life she actually went out of there way to make my life harder and bad mouthed me to everyone and made lies up.
- sold my things and kept the money.
Things have sort of been OK the past few years, they are still very negative about things. More recently they have been telling my dc how unfair it is I don't let them come for a sleep over and that I'm "crazy". - I don't seen them because there's a pandemic and we're not aloud to see anyone except support bubble (which they are not).
Sorry if that's confusing using "them" it is just one of them but I'm trying not to be outing. One parent isn't in my life anymore.
My question is has anyone got any tips / recommendations of books / videos etc to help me deal with this?
I'm feeling sad again laid in bed because I'm being "rediculas" for not bringing my dc for a sleep over... in the middle of a pandemic, when it's not allowed and they are a key worker mixing with lots of people daily.
Anyway any help would be greatly received thank you.