Ptsd

[wombatsandaplant]

Coming to conclusion that I may have ptsd from multiple events.

I constantly feel on edge, like one of the traumas is going to happen again, or something else bad is going to happen. I have flashbacks at least once daily, and I relive the events over and over in my head for hours each day. I feel guilty I feel like it’s all my fault, I know it isn’t but I don’t believe it. I fit every symptom and I have done for long time.

I need to talk to my psychologist about it, and my psychiatrist but I’m hoping to change psychiatrists soon, so I’m not sure I want to talk about it with him.

I don’t even know why I’m posting. Sorry.

Please don't apologise- there's no need. I think it would be good to speak to someone you trust about it. It sounds like that would be your psychologist?
I hadn't realised that things like feeling on edge and irritable and unable to be 'present' can be PTSD symptoms. I think sometimes it's only when you're out of a traumatic situation that this stuff starts to surface. Here if you need to talk!

Hun, we are always here for you! Sorry you are feeling this way. From what you said it does sound like you need to talk to someone who can really help you. But we are always here too! Xx

I started seeing a therapist a fair while after my trauma and gradually she told me that it seemed I had PTSD. I'd gone into the therapy suspecting it but feeling ridiculous that my fairly normal life had resulted in ptsd, it just sounded ridiculous when I said it out loud.

Thanks guys.

I just feel like such a failure. Not that other people with ptsd are failures, I just feel like I’m personally a failure because of the possibility of it. Which I know makes no sense.

I’ve thought I’ve had it for quite awhile, but I’ve tried to ignore it hoping it would go away. But clearly it hasn’t.

I just don’t know anymore. I have other mental health diagnosis’s, one of which has caused trauma, from psychosis. The other trauma is from when I was 13, when I was alone and found my mother dead in her bed.

I hope I won’t chicken out of talking about it with my psychologist. I really should have spoken about it at the start of the sessions. Bringing it up in the second last session probably isn’t the best idea. I dunno.

That’s awful, I am so very sorry that happened to you truly. Thing is, without working these things out by talking you will just go round in circles - well I think anyway! You have obviously had some awful things happen to you and need help to work them through in your head so you can move on? Get that next apt made! First step to getting over and starting again xxx

The sooner you mention it, the faster you can get treatment for it. My DH had it and found great success with EMDR. It made a difference even after the first session.

Be kind to yourself. You're not a failure. PTSD can be brought on by so many different things. It's not something you can stop or avoid happening.

Thanks.

My session is tomorrow, so I will bring it up.

EMDR worked for me for PTSD after working through various issues with a psychologist.

Well, I spoke to the psychologist and she’s agrees. So we’re going to do some sessions on it and go from there.

That's great news - well done on bringing it up with them...