Hi all, I'm really struggling with my anxiety around breastfeeding. I've a four month old baby and he bit my nipple last weekend, I haven't been able to feed properly on that breast.
I've been trying to pump from that breast to give my nipple a chance to heal, but I have trouble with the letdown because of the spiralling anxiety and so I'm getting very little milk. I now need to top up with formula.
Basically I worry about
- engorgement and blocked ducts if I don't pump efficiently > which then negatively feedback loop into my letdown so I don't pump efficiently. I had recurrent blocked ducts so I'm really scared of it
- needing to put my baby on formula and what if he started getting constipated on formula / stomach upsets due to the quick transition
- letdown - I now suffer from poor letdown on my unaffected breast because I'm so anxious. Which again another negative feedback loop since more anxiety > less letdown > fuel more anxiety
- pain - my nipple is too sore to feed and the last time I fed on it, it gave my sharp soothing pain radiating through my breast
I don't know how I can break the negative feedback cycle.
I had some CBT before and know that i should use worry time, listing down my what if's, etc. I will do them with my husband today to see if that helps. At least he is really supportive :) but I can't seem to get over the anxiety cycle myself