I just feel so lonely. My only friend told me last week that she was leaving work and I was so upset that she hadn’t told me this was even a possibility. I told her as gently as I could that I was upset - but then it all went very wrong. Apparently I was making it about me. I wasn’t. I congratulated her on her new job but said given a whole load of conversations we’d had the previous week that I felt hurt that it had come out of the blue. All lockdown I have been asking her to meet for a walk at lunchtime but she always found a reason not to but we’d text lots during the day. Now, she’s left work and she’s left me too. It sounds silly but I feel like I’m grieving. I thought we were really close and she had supported me a lot during a really difficult time. But maybe she wasn’t really my friend. I am so lucky in some ways. I have a husband and children but I find people really difficult. I’m very quiet and don’t know what to say. I have no other friends. I can’t eat. I cry all the time - I have for a few months. I’m not sleeping. Just go over in my head time and time again about what I should have done differently to not lose this friend. The sadness I feel seems disproportional to just having a friend move on. I guess my husband should be my friend, and he is, but I just want a female friend (I work with lots of men) but I’m too rubbish to know how to form friendships. This friend is the first person I thought I had bonded with in years and I’ve just been dismissed. I am sad and as ridiculous as it sounds, I feel like my heart is breaking.