I Can No Longer Stay Positive - So Down

[Blossom4538]

Hi all,
I actually don’t know how we’ve managed to get through the past year. I know it’s been hard for so many. For us, it was a couple of huge changes in our lives, lockdown/covid etc, sudden family bereavement and we have a child with special needs who has mostly been at home since March, last year.

I try to remain positive, but I’m exhausted and feel so down (already on anti depressants). Little things or craft activities, learning a language etc, which used to help, no longer interest me.

Dd will not do much at all and we can’t even really go for walks/exercise together.

I feel stuck and so tired. H is working from home and always in zoom meetings. Like I say, DD is in her room most of the time, won’t do much. She can be very violent and aggressive too.
I can’t work currently due to family/carer commitments with my DD and another family member.

I feel like I’m at breaking point and honestly don’t know how we’ve managed to cope as a family, this past year.

Sorry to moan, I know we’ve all had it hard xx

Hey, I know how you feel and feel pretty low myself too. I feel like not only am I at breaking point, but I’m trying to hold my relationship together too because DP is pretty low and is quite focused on keeping busy at work. How can we pick each other up? Can you tell me some positives you have at the moment? Xx

Thank you for your reply! So sorry you’re feeling low too.

When I read your post, initially, I really couldn’t think of anything positive. Then I thought, we live in a nice house (although needs a lot of work, not easy with an autistic little one), we are lucky to live in a great town near the sea and beautiful countryside, Spring is almost here, my family and friends are currently free from Covid and I am happy to have H, although times can be very hard, I’m not sure how we’d cope without each other.

I am lucky to have an amazing girl, just finding DD’s intensity with her sensory struggles and aggression hard and still, in private, I am grieving the loss of a close family member 😔

What positives can you think of?

Hope you’ve had an ok day!