Cant see a future

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Hello. I was wondering if anyone else has experienced this kind of mindfrane and what helped you.

Ive just turned 50. My husband left me to look after my disabled daughter on my own Nov 2019, the same month as my mum was diagnosed with cancer. She passed away this August gone.

Im struggling for money as I cant work full time due to daughter not being able to go to school. Im struggling with my mental health badly at the moment. I have no one except for daughter, no family at all now mum has gone. I am alone.

I have started relational councilling and its helping to talk. However, my counsellor has also began inner child therapy to try to address the abuse I suffered in childhood. It has been so traumatic, with dreams, flashbacks etc that we have had to stop.

So here I am, feeling there is no future for me and once my daughter gets to 18, in 5 yrs, I cant see any point in carrying on.

Dont know why I wrote all that really, just rambling

Gosh, you poor thing. I couldn’t read and not post. You’re dealing with such huge transitions all at once, no wonder things look bleak (...and a pandemic thrown into the mix!) But time moves on and changes like seasons, and how it is now, isn’t how it will always be- things evolve. What will life look like when your daughter is 18? Will there be an opportunity for you to have a little more flexibility? You are not alone. You’ve come here to connect and that means you’ve been heard.