I'm being such a bitch to them all lately. They deserve so much better than what I am giving them. I know I am doing it, I am trying to stop it, but it all seems impossible.
I shielded for 5 months last year because I am having chemotherapy. I managed to go back to work for 5 months before shielding was put back in place and although I told my employer I'd work this time as was confident that mother were covid safe, they insisted I shielded yet again. I am working towards a promotion, and feel like this has put a massive brake on it all.
It has taken such a hit on my mental health. I am down all the time. I cry over the smallest of things some days.
I am on two different medications, both of them have side effects that affect my mood. I cannot stop taking them, they're needed otherwise my condition will deteriorate.
Every day is like Groundhog Day. DC don't seem to give a shit about me running around after them (they're all over and capable), they're managing home learning to an extent. DH is at work, he needs to be, but when he comes home he is tired, so the conversation is about his work and then he likes to chill watching TV. I have nothing to offer conversation wise, what can I talk about? How I cleaned the oven that day?
What do I put first? My health? My family? Myself?