I'm having a mental helath crisis and there's no help. TW self harm and intrusive thoughts

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I have always struggled with my mental helath I also have autism. I am also 29 weeks pregnant. Despite being in a pandemic. I've really cut down my self harm. I went from 24 times in the six month prior to twice during the pregnancy. My care co from mental helath team is of long term. I am under perinatal and they are very good. I self harmed badly two weeks ago to
The point I had to be admitted to hospital. I really wanted more help amd was told I'd get more. All I've had is a worker telling me to stop
So I don't have to use crisis teams ! I no it could be pregnancy hormones. But I've spent every day crying/screaming. Being really close to self harming and having some over very intrusive thoughts. I've rung and rung and nothing. I don't know what to do. I don't feel safe. I have social services involvement for baby. They aren't putting it on any child protection or anything. But they are very constantly on my back of course. But are actually the only people saying I'm really trying. The midwifes are concerned with things escalating but there's nothing to put in place. I don't know what to do. I can't go on like this

You have to get some outside help. Are you on your own or do you have a partner or family around you? The Crisis Team is there for people in crisis and it sounds like you are.

I live on my own I do have family support. They are unavailable at the moment. I did ring duty team before 5 and they told me to use my distractions which I have

Hang in here for now then and chat

Do your distractions usually help? Does it take a while for the feelings to subside?

If I really dont feel safe 999.

Yes last couple weeks distractions help to a point. There's been a few points they haven't. I've done a lot today. I am really trying

Keep posting on here, you've got this. We may not be there with you but imagine that we are, sitting with you, holding your hand.

Thank you so much. It's just so frustrating to
Not know what to do to help yourself. I want to protect my baby. But it's so hard at the Moment. They just say how busy they are and I get that. But I really want to hurt myself badly but really don't want to as well.

Hey hun, it sounds as though you're having a really tough time with it all at the moment. I self harm and get intrusive thoughts too. I know it's not easy, especially when you're in that dark place where it seems like harming is the only relief.
What distraction techniques are you using at the moment?
are you taking medication at all? Xx

Pregnancy is a bugger and may be aggravating things. But all that aside, if u feel unsafe, keep talking here.
Is tour psych team usually supportive?
I am bipolar and self harm too
Sometimes I can go for months and months then out of the blue it happens and I cant explain why.
It's not always that easy to deal with. If it were people wouldnt neednhelp
Do u think you need medical attention for the incident?

I've walked the dog, done some cooking, started to paint baby's room and had a bath. I'm still watching tv to. The mental health team have never been to useful before things just escalate and esculate till I end up in hospital. But I don't want that this time. I haven't self harmed since my last bad incident. But that ended up I'm having surgery so again really don't want to. But evreything as getting way to much.

Hi, it's not your problem they are busy and although they undoubtedly are they shouldn't be using that as a reason not to give you the support you need. You can get through this, the thoughts will subside, you have got through this before. Are you on any medication and can that be increased to get you through a difficult patch?

I'm on medication it has been increased the thoughts have been pretty constant recently and really hard to live with. It just teaches points were it gets to intense and to much amd tonight is an example

Hi hoping you're holding up, is there anything you can do to relax you? What usually helps? You don't deserve to be hurt, you are worthy of kindness and love from others and yourself ❤️

I get how overwhelming and frightening it can feel, remember the feeling will pass. It has before and it will again. Use the strength for you and your baby to get through these moments. Would you like to be asked some distracting questions?

I'll take anything distracting ! I am trying as hard as possible

What's your favourite tv show currently?

Series 3 of the good doctor has been put in sky !

How are things going for you? Has anyone from ur family dropped by to see you