TW: 'Living' with suicidal thoughts.

[Someone1987]

(Mumsnet please don't delete this post, as you normally do of my posts. I'm not citing method, so you have no justification to do so).

I was wondering if anybody else feels suicidal regularly, but somehow carries on day to day?

Since I've had my baby, I've regularly wanted to end it, yet I haven't.

Is it possible to live with suicidal thoughts and not act on them or is it inevitable I will act on them one day?

I get close, then I don't do it.

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. Do you have any form of support or professional help?

It isn't inevitable that you will always feel suicidal.. suicidal thoughts can have many causes and I think it can be really helpful to get professional support to explore why you're having them and how you can manage or overcome them.

However I would say that yes, it is possible to live with these thoughts. I have a mental illness which has caused me to be chronically suicidal since I was a child, and I did act on suicidal thoughts in the distant past when I was much younger and impulsive. But I have not acted on them for many years, despite thinking about it regularly and sometimes feeling overwhelmed by them. I know that I don't really want to die, but I feel so emotionally overwhelmed that I want to escape. I have hope that with doing intensive therapy to control my emotions better, I will end up in that dark place less and less.