I am so so stressed and upset about this and would love someone to put me right. (Have named changed for this).
I made a disclosure a couple of weeks ago to a practitioner at my local NHS mental health services on an assessment initial call. The disclosure was about historic sexual childhood abuse which has never been known by anyone. I also disclosed the relationship with the person, who is a family member who I still have contact with.
I had NO IDEA that my disclosure would lead to the practitioner referring the fact onto their team. Yes, she briefly mentioned safeguarding at the start of the call but I took this to mean whether my current mental state posed any danger to my own children. Which it doesn't. Nothing specific was mentioned to give me warning of anything else.
When she called me back a couple of days ago I was told that my disclosure has been discussed with their team and due to safeguarding they were encouraging me to report it. Which I absolutely have no desire to do, never have, never will. I was hoping to have therapy for current challenges I'm facing and to hopefully work through past issues confidentially with someone supportive. I had no clue that this would suddenly become an issue that might threaten my entire family's stability.
Anyway, I now have to face the face that my disclosure is now permanently on my medical file and I am deeply concerned and stressed about this. I don't know who could access it, who could discover my personal information, or whether they might decide to pass on details about the abuser without my consent. I have a relative who works for the NHS - could she now view this information? If I go to the doctors for anything, will he see it on my file?
I've basically thought of little else since Thursday and am deeply stressed by it. Can anyone reassure me?