The loneliness is killing me...

[Vicosaur]

I'm not sure why I'm posting on here. I suppose just to write down how I'm feeling rather than bottling it up...

I just feel so unbelievably lonely. I talk to a few family members, but have no friends to talk to. I know that lockdown doesn't help, but I've never felt so alone or so incredibly low in my life, to the point that I'd do anything to make this feeling go away.

I know that so many people are probably feeling similar at the moment, but I just felt like I needed to vent.

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Is there anyone you can talk to in real life? You mention some family members?
Would it help to consider moving in with family members?

I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. It must be absolutely awful to feel lonely at a time like this. Can you talk to us? Could you call your family members more often? Could you join an online Zoom group?

Thank you both for reading what I wrote. I live with my mum, but she's an alcoholic so I feel as though I can't talk to her as she's not really there if that makes sense? And I've reached a point where I just want to shut everyone out. I know that sounds like such a contradiction, but I just don't know how to deal with these feelings.
Thank you again for taking the time to read and comment though.

I can't imagine. Could you try being more active on Facebook?

That's worst of all worlds. Alone but with someone. I'm crap with suggestions but I feel for you

Yeah. Or a project. Cleaning out a, space or something?

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time. Do you have any interests you could get involved in more to help? Might give you some time away from your mum.

I tend to avoid Facebook as it can be quite overwhelming, but thank you for the suggestion ^^