PMDD is running my llfe.

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That's it, I just wanted to tell someone. I'll be at work all morning with a smile plastered on my face but inside I know that if I didn't have children I'd be off the end of a cliff.

1 week before I'm due on and the crushing feeling of worthlessness is unbearable.

Whilst I know it's not 'real' in struggling to cope, what if it's just a way for me to accept my true feelings and it is real after all?

I don't know what I want from this. Just to tell someone.

You are not alone in feeling like this, although it might feel like it. I get those 'is it real?' feelings too. I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. You know it will pass but that probably isn't helping right now. I have called Samaritans in times of desperation, and found it helpful in the short term. There is also a support group on Facebook which you might find helpful. But, there is medication that can help with this, you need a GP who will take it seriously.

I absolutely hear you. It’s completely awful and soul destroying.

Have you looked into medical treatments? Mind have a summary: www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/premenstrual-dysphoric-disorder-pmdd/about-pmdd/

I haven’t gone that route, as am trying to address other health and diet issues first), but I know people who have. Im reading Diet Cure /Mood Cure books and Mindy Pelznis helpful too.

Sorry if that’s infuriating info sharing. I’ve been dealing with it the last 4/5 years and it’s very extreme when stressed. Remember though that it lies. When it says you are worthless it lies.

I feel the exact same. 3 days until my period is due and I feel like this every single month.
I tried to explain it to the doctor last time I was on the phone to him about a different issue and I dont even think it registered in his mind.
I am currently lying in bed, hiding away from life. I'm snappy, emotional and just generally at a really low point today.
I'm just so fed up with having to deal with intrusive thoughts like I'm worthless, I'm pathetic, I'd be better off dead.
I know I just need to ride it out, but it's awful how much it affects relationships and then I go round in circles justifying my worthlessness thoughts because I've snapped at someone I love.

Thank you everyone. It means a lot to be 'heard' I have spoken to DH about it at length and told him my fears that the 'bad' voice will overpower to good voice. He's asked that we think of a way to convey between us if I'm feeling that so he can step in.

I have sat and filled a pill box with vitamins and supplements that are meant to help. Magnesium oxide, B6, Calcium and vitamin D.
I have tried evening primrose for about 6 months, it was a year or 2 ago but it caused constant low level nausea and breast pain so I was advised to stop.

I have put in a request to join the uk Facebook support pages.