Is this a crisis?

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I feel like I can't carry on.

I can't get up in the morning and cook and clean, homeschool, apply for jobs (that never get responses), care for the kids (teeth, hair wash, vitamins etc), cope with my boisterous boy who needs to be at school, sibling fights, their mood swings, pets...

Is this a crisis?

I want to escape.
I'm googling hotels. Where could I go? What could I do?

I can't do this. I can't do this until April or sept with no respite. I actually can't do it.

Sorry - I am sure you are doing a fantastic job. Do you have a partner or other support and could have a bit of a break?. Maybe it would be ok to forget about home school just for one day and just do something different. I hope schools will be the first thing to start up again so don't lose hope.

Please go easy on yourself, you've done well to do all of that for this long as it is. You can only do what you can do.

You're not alone with these thoughts and there are so many people going through exactly this too so, if you can, please speak to someone and talk this stuff over (a trusted friend or the Samaritans/any listening service) and offload all the stuff in your head. It might clear your overloaded mind long enough to reach out to friends/family/support bubble and try and sort out 24 hours to yourself to reset your buttons. If someone can't take them for that kind of time then can someone in your support bubble come and take them out on a big walk a few times a week just to give you some breathing space and get some calm?

You need to cut yourself some slack with cleaning and homeschooling too. Houses up and down the country are absolute shit tips and you on your own can't replace a school full of trained professionals. You are doing amazing under extremely difficult circumstances. Take care

We don't have a support bubble, or anyone who could help give me a breather. DH is out the house 12 hours each day and has been since last March when this all started. He's exhausted himself and doesn't have anything left to offer me in the way of support, or even affection.

I've lost hope over the schools. I feel like they'd rather let the kids stick with the online learning, instead of risk bringing them back to school only to have to take them out again. In lots of other countries the entire school year has been written off to online learning instead. I'm angry that lots of kids don't have a capable adult (time, patience etc) at home to guide them through it.

I feel angry that I lost my job last April, after not being able to complete the work with the kids at home full time. The job search is so demoralising. I've never ever not been able to get a job before. It's not something I'm used to.

I know lots of people are struggling and few people will come out of this intact. I just don't feel I have any steam left. I don't know how to keep it together any longer.