Overwhelmed and exhausted

[Rosebel]

I'm so fucking tired
Have been back at work two days and already can't cope with any of it. The 2am starts, the pressure and targets, the bitching, moaning and often aggressive customers.
Not helping is the fact my baby staring teething and is generally unsettled at night and grumpy in the day
He refuses to nap for more than 30 minutes and will only sleep on me which he did stop doing for a while but has gone back to.
I don't want to go back to work tomorrow. I know I should be grateful to have a job but I'm so tired and overwhelmed by it all.
There is no break, work, then home to my baby and little sleep because he's unsettled and I have to be up early.
Was only meant to be doing 3 days but they basically bullied me in to doing 5. I want to give up but I know getting another job will be impossible.
My husband is fed up with me and says no one likes work and I just need to suck it up.
My older children are at school and I'm terrified of them catching Covid or of me catching it, especially considering so many customers still aren't wearing masks.
I miss my family and friends desperately. We were in a support bubble with my parents last year but now I'm working and the children are at school /nursery I feel the risk is too high to them.
I just feel so lonely and sad.

Hi, I'm sorry OP. Juggling work and kids, especially with a baby, is hard going even without covid and all the extra stress. And so hard to be away from family and friends too. Yes, everyone is lonely and yes, lots of people don't like their jobs and are scared of getting covid, but that doesn't make your feelings any less real or raw. I don't really have much in the way of advice, just look for the little wins and little treats and try to remember that we are nearly there (I keep telling myself that). By Easter the days will be longer, more people would have the vaccine and hopefully we can start to see people again. "This too will pass" is what I keep saying, and it will. Take care

Can you speak again to work, tell them you can't cope on 5 days?

I didn’t want to leave your post unanswered. I absolutely detest my job at the moment, but I can’t change. I have a plan to change once lockdown is over-hopefully by summer sometime. Working mums have a tough life and no sleep must be exhausting. I’d ask if you could reduce hours for now. I think it is ok to also start looking for another job. Mine gave me health problems and I can’t carry on like this. Constant anxiety and now on beta blocker for it. I hope you can resolve it, either by reducing hours or changing. It’s great your children are at school. Imagine home ed on top of it all!