I can't do this anymore…

[mrsjw17]

I'm struggling.

I feel so alone.

I'm at home alone with my children all day every day.

My husband is out the door early for work & goes to bed not long after the children go to bed.

The children lost all respect since not having the routine of school, not seeing family & everything else that they're being faced with.

Yes, I know it's tough for them too I completely get that.

I'm have 2 medical conditions. Both limit what I can do during the day as I have extreme pain & fatigue.
I also suffer with anxiety & depression.

Homeschooling has completely overwhelmed me.
The work load is immense & I haven't got a clue with half of it which also has got me down cause not only do I feel like a rubbish parent for not being able to do all the things a "normal" mum can do but I also feel like I'm failing them to.

I just can't do this anymore.

The kids not doing as their told is making myself & my husband argue.
He doesn't understand all the pressure I'm under.
He doesn't understand how my medical conditions make me feel.
It's always a constantly competition as to who is the more tired.

I'm the one who sits with them when they can't sleep, I'm not one who does all the odds - cause it always has been me from day one....

I honestly just give up..

i dont believe everyone is doing perfect homeschooling so dont beat yourself up with that.
do your best, dont worry for furthermore.
wish you well .

@bluebell34567
Thank you, I wish it was just the homeschooling that was the problem.
Everything just seems to much at the moment & I don't know what to do about it all

yeah, i understand.
just try to focus on the most important things.

AD's help as well.

@mrsjw17 I understand, I have a chronic condition in daily pain, it Varys from day to day, week to week. I've recently hit rock bottom and nobody knows or cares.

I do such a good job of working, being a mum, managing life being happy.. but the pain is relentless and it just hits you, it's the loneliness of not being able to share the pain, because when people ask how you are they really don't want to hear how many painkillers you take or how you can't always sleep.

I don't have an answer I just wanted you to know you're not alone xx

My suggestion would be to ask your DH for help, genuinely sit him down and explain how you feel, he won't have a bloody clue you've hit this point until it's right in his face spelt out.

Can you book with him a Sunday to rest, curl up in bed with a hot water bottle and Netflix and cups of tea and have a day, just explain to him you feel broken.

*varies

Also meant to add the schooling can maybe take a back burner? Could you do mornings and have films, documentaries or the bbc bite size TV afternoons.

Really feel for you. Sounds ultra tough. I have no medical conditions and really hit a wall with it this past week- had a massive row, I was being a horrible mum, then feeling awful etc. Felt completely overwhelmed.

Made a new plan, don't know your kids ages, but mine are 9 and 5. New plan is

Aim for 1-2 pierces of set school work per day per child.

Time outdoors

Story time

And Board game (if possible) every day.

Beyond that they can read, play, help with chores, play outside, have time on screens etc.

I feel WAY better since and kids are arguing less. Everyone is happier. This is an unusual time- we aren't teachers- or if we are it's a very different situation. Please be kind to yourself.

i hope you are feeling better op.