Loss of my Children

[TeeteringontheedgeofLife]

How will I recover from the loss of my Children to my ExH in a residency case? I was their main carer when we were married and even more so, as he moved a long way away, after we divorced. I don't know who I am without this role in their life.

@desperatelyseeking1 one can only appeal on a point of law. I am still waiting for advice on that.

@Santaiscovidfree how did you deal with the pain?

@Bluntness100 that's me. The Judge denied his request for photos as she said that would create too much of an imbalance of power.

I bought a dpuppy, remarried and moved 30 miles away. And learned to lock away a lot of it. I had more dc. Worked very hard to nurture their sibling relationships.. When dc moved here and went nc with exh it was beyond my wildest dreams. 4 years of happiness so far. My ds 19 tells me whenever I see him how amazing I am and how much he loves me and misses me (army). Ds 16 is a pleasure... Exh is a distant bad dream. But 1 day I really will dance on his grave.
Find a focus op, new flat /hobby /job /pet. A new friend - and allow yourself happiness in something..

@LIZS the Judge acknowledges the ruling is against their wishes.

@Santaiscovidfree my focus for fifteen years has been just them. Even when I was married, I did a lot of the parenting alone. It all seems rather fruitless.

Op you need to find a way to keep busy. Remind yourself you are worthy of a decent life. Make new friends. - they can keep you positive.. I had a great friend back then. Sadly not now. You need to find a happy place mentally for the future. Trust me I never ever ever expected a text from my ds to go pick him up.. To be decorating a room for him was a fantasy I never shared with anyone. To stand at his army pass out parade - just wow. Op your life as a isn't over. Please trust me.
Life is exhausting I won't lie - but it's the best life I could ever have imagined living..
Pm me if you are struggling anytime
Xxx