Struggling, constantly feel sick, what’s the point

[lilypad07]

I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for a while, I’ve had counselling and therapy and yet I don’t think I’ve ever felt worse? I know everyone’s going through the same thing and I feel like my problems aren’t valid because of it but I just don’t know what to do with myself.

I am 23, I live with my parents and I know full well how lucky I am to have my health and a roof over my head. I had a tricky year last year with a break up after a LTR, moving back home, being diagnosed with some health issues as well as some other things. I have struggled for most of lockdown but really can’t see the point now.

I don’t know how to explain it other than empty? All I’m doing every day is working, I work 9-5 and am doing lessons via zoom all day every day, but I can’t explain how much I don’t want to and I slack off where I can because I just cannot find the motivation for anything. I feel constantly sick, I spend so much time in bed just doing nothing, I’m so fidgety at the moment as well. I started to get myself up and out for runs but I don’t even enjoy those. I’m just starting to feel sort of, a huge wave of nothingness. I know a lot of people feel like this too but I feel like my friends don’t reach out to me. I literally just slump around all day and just cannot be bothered. I really can’t see the light and therapy and counselling hasn’t worked for me. I don’t know what to do with myself ☹️

Hi OP, sorry you are feeling this way. You're right, lots of people are feeling this way but doesn't make it any easier. There's a real risk that the less you do, the less you want to do. All I can suggest is be kind to yourself, this is a really tough time, and try and set little positive goals. As you do them you can build on them but start small. It could also be worth thinking about trying a different type of counselling? There's not a "one size fits all" for mental health and sometimes it takes a few attempts at different things to find what works for you. Take care and all the best

Hi lilypad07. I’m so, so sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad. 😔
Have you spoken with your GP recently? I know you’ve said that counseling and therapy haven’t worked for you before but I wonder if it might be worth seeing if there is something else that might help. Has your GP previously ruled out any physical causes?

It sounds like you are fighting to hold things together which, while admirable, must be exhausting for you.

How are your parents? Are they supportive and understanding?

That’s a good idea to try exercising but I can see that running might not be that enjoyable. Are you eating and sleeping ok?
COVID is messing with a lot of people’s mental health but that doesn’t mean you should just put up with how you are feeling.
I hope you feel better soon. 🌻🌻🌻