I'm just starting my 7th week on 30mg Mirtazapine, previously I was on 40mg Citalopram and 150mg sertraline before that.
I started 2020 on sertraline and ended on mirtazapine. I was on sertraline as I was breastfeeding but when I stopped mid year I could finally change as it just wasn't cutting it. Anxiety was sky high and panic attacks so frequent, so it was time for a change.
Citalopram had the opposite effect, anxiety was under control but depression worse than ever. I have a toddler and work full time and I'd never been so low in my life I just couldn't muster the energy for anything.
So now week 7 on mirtazapine and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. My anxiety is back to being unbearable and controls my life. I'm so depressed and just feel sad all the time. I've put on so much weight and need to hear some positivity to stop me ringing the doctors begging to change again.
I'm struggling to differentiate between reasonable sadness and anxiety due to what's going on in the world or what's caused by my anxiety/depression. I'm a key worker and work is awful right now which doesn't help.
Those on mirtazapine or those who have gone through multiple medications to find the right one for them... please reassure me it gets better. I just can't go on like this.