I am not ok

[MozzchopsThirty]

I need to say it

I've slept for days and I'm not rested
I'm not on enough medication
My boyfriend let me down when I needed him
My kids are in their rooms all day
I'm not being a great parent
I don't want to go anywhere
I don't want to see anyone
I haven't eaten
I could quite easily start drinking now
I've cried a lot

I am not ok

So sorry to hear you are feeling that way OP. I know it’s no consolation but you are very much not alone - keep talking on here if you can xxxxx

💐 could you manage to have a nap on the sofa in front of some easy watching tv? Take dog for a quick wander listening to music or an audiobook?

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Different things work for different people, the things I recommended worked for me and got me out of dark place. There is absolutely no space on a thread like this to be so rude, insulting and arrogant. If you have to be unkind of a thread like this, then there is no hope.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. We can see you are going to contact your GP for some RL support, which is great. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.’

Very best wishes from all of us here.

Thank you x

Serttaline is an absolute nightmare to come off. I was on 25mg for about 9 months and coming off it I was as you described for about 6 weeks. After that I was fine but it took much longer than 10 days. Do you have your gps support in reducing your dose cos 100mg in 6 months sounds quite quick feeling as you do. The effects of coming off it would put me off that medication again - it was horrible, though the medication did help when I needed it.

Can you up the dose slightly to take the edge off withdrawal?

I don't know whether to just go over my boyfriends
Not seeing him or speaking to him is making my anxiety go through the roof

I don't know if it'll make things worse or better
He's hung over to fuck today, I left him in bed at 1pm

Fucking shit isn't it?
Even dragging myself out of bed to have a wee is just to much.
No point me telling you what I do as you are not me, but I get it I really do.
If you get the receptionist who owns the NHS in the morning tell her to suck it up and sort out an appointment as I always trend to get her when I'm like this.

Yes I can up the dose tonight and take 150 or 200mg

I did come off it with my GPs support but it's been 5-6 months so this isn't withdrawal

@6demandingchildren my GP receptionists are actually really good

Last week I was diagnosed with shingles, had a cold, and told that my CA125 continues to climb
I was supposed to have hysteroscopy in September but was cancelled due to covid as routine investigation

I can’t really give any advice as you know what works for you, and you’ve had some good suggestions already so I don’t have much to add.

But didn’t want to read and run without sending some . Hope everything starts to look a little brighter soon.

No wonder you are feeling crap if you have shingles. Aren't they evidence of your immune system being under siege?

No advice really but just came in here to say sorry you are feeling so crap Mozzchops . And I hear you about young adults and black and white thinking. You are right to keep your counsel there. They can be unhelpfully judgemental at that age, do not underestimate the wearying effects of that on your mh. It's very hard to have busted a gut for your DC and then have them not be quite as accommodating in reverse when you need some understanding! (That will come later though, when they have DC themselves.)

That doesn't exonerate them from cooking for you though. Could you say you had a headache and point DC towards ingreds? Or do you find cooking therapeutic?

Fwiw, if bf is hungover , I would leave him be for today.

Hope getting a gp appt isn't too much of a trial for you tomorrow

I am sorry you are feeling this way, OP. Well done for saying 'Help'.

That's good you have a bit of a plan for tonight OP. You'll get through this. Have you thought about calling the out of hours doctor if you feel up to it, instead of waiting to speak to your regular GP tomorrow? Maybe they could give you the ok to increase your dose and perhaps prescribe some short term sleeping pills until it takes effect.

Don't worry about your dog, she'll be ok without walks for a few days even if she's bored. Or if it's bothering you a lot could you ask if any of your friends wants to walk her? Someone might be glad of the excuse to get out of the house for a while.