Don't know how i can do it anymore

[purpleme12]

i don't know how i can do it anymore
i can't give my daughter fun anymore
she doesn't take well to this learning at home.
the mums on facebook put screenshots of the home learning saying all activites done! so smug! well guess what we're nowhere near that!
my child doesn't enjoy learning like theirs
my child has to stay with me at home now while i work
there is no fun in life
i love my child but i'm no good for her at the minute
i can't remember the last time i had warmth from someone
we'll have our reviews at work soon i can't cope with the criticisms that might come from that.
i don't know how i can do it

Oh @purpleme12, you’re being way too hard on yourself and your dd. I don’t have Facebook (never have), and since this all started I’m glad I haven’t. Anyone can stage anything, it’s very often not a portrayal of real life. How old is your dd?
I know this will be little comfort right now, but what you have described is the truth for most people now. FWIW my partner didn’t like learning, flunked his exams, was told he’d never amount to anything and now he’s occupying a very senior very well paid job. We’re right in the clutches of something major. I think for a lot of us just getting up and dressed at the moment is a massive achievement.
Just take one hour at a time, try not to make everything a catastrophe in your mind. Try to make time for your dd and equally as important for yourself (I know this is easier said than done]
Obviously I don’t know about your work, or your output but it wouldn’t be a great company if they can’t appreciate the sacrifices we are all making. The vast majority of us have felt like we’ve failed at something on so many occasions. Hang in there op, this can’t go on forever.
I’m hoping a fellow mumsnetter will come along to help you feel better too.

You’re doing the very best you can during such a difficult time. Please try to ignore what others are posting about what their child is doing/achieving, it’s usually just to make themselves feel good/superior to others.
Also it’s only one moment in a day and not a reflection of what’s really going on in their house.
Remember every child is different, your child may not enjoy learning school stuff but may excel in so many different things. If you find things are difficult with the home schooling take a break, do something different to reduce the tension and go back to it again after. Please remember you aren’t the only one feeling like this, so many other parents will be feeling exactly the same and having the same difficulties. As @Phoenix76 said take each day an hour at a time. When something has gone well give yourself the credit for it.
Re work, your post sounds as if you’re very down on yourself at the moment and you’re expecting the worst from your review. I hope your employer understands the pressure your under and appreciates all that you are doing. It’s hard not to but try not to take any comments made as personal criticism. If you can try to take a little bit of time for yourself each day to do something that you enjoy and makes you feel good about yourself. It doesn’t have to be a big thing, having time to drink a cup of tea with a biscuit and really focusing on it, a soak in the bath or a reading a magazine/book - just something to help you relax.
Remember you’re doing brilliantly.

Thank you
It is so hard to believe that
I am getting pressure from work and pressure from her school. All sides
I have been working from home since march and I always hated it.
Yes I am down on myself
I haven't felt human warmth since I hugged my friend in October and that is so upsetting.
And that is what would really make me feel better. It's not the same with child. My child doesn't do hugs anyway