Hi,
I am wondering if anybody has any experience or advice please.
I have been on Escitalopram 20mg for over ten years. During that time I have had breakthrough depression usually resolved within 2 weeks or so this always happens during the winter months (SAD?). When summer comes symptoms resolve and remain stable on the Escitalopram - I am not numb on it have usual ups and downs eg things that would normally upset me would but I wouldnt spiral.
Since October 2020, I had a blip which worsened and worsened the GP started me on 15mg Mirtazapine to take alongside this has helped with sleep although sleep wasnt a massive problem. But it does not seem to have done much for my mood depression. I stopped taking the 15mg as felt it was hard to get up in the mornings and felt it wasnt helping my mood well after 3 days (had been taking for 9 w) I felt tearful +++ so thought hang on maybe it was working. The GP said I can go up to 30mg - I am going to go up to 30mg but if this does not work I do not know what to do.
Has anybody had no relief for depression at 15mg but suddenly found 30mg helpful for mood.
I really am at a loss I feel tearful very depressed nothing to look forward to (I am sure everybody else in the same boat due to lockdown) but I cant even plan anything or see anybody. All my plans in 2020 got cancelled and things are starting to be cancelled for 2021. I feel like there is nothing.
I am manging to go to work doing bare minimum, but all I want to do is cry, my face aches like im holding in tears. Ive broken down a few times at work. I am on waiting list for CBT, I have people to talk to etc, but nothing takes away this dark horrible feeling.
I am wondering if the Escilaopram has stopped working ? after 10 years plus on this OR my depression has worsened. I have tried in the past to swap from Escitalopram to other medications and failed massively so I am scared to try anything else but scared of being stuck like this also. I agreed to try the Mirtazapine as you can take it along side the Escitalopram hence I wasnt as scared.
Id be grateful for anybody's advice.