So low and feeling numb

[Penguinkeeper]

I've had long term problems with my mental health for years (on meds, see psychiatrist e tc) but for the last few months it's all spiralled out of control. My anxiety is off the scale, not slept properly for months and I just can't do it anymore.

The only thing that's keeping me going is the fact my partner's seriously ill (tho improving) and needs me to support him - apart from that there's no point to me or my life. I don't know what to do I feel numb and like I'm just existing from day to day.

I don't know why I'm posting just feel so low and alone tonight

Sorry to hear you're struggling. Would it be worth having a meds review? It sounds like you've alot on your plate at the moment. On top of whats already going on with this pandemic. Do you have any tools to help you manage? Having a bath, music, a particular drink/food, a relaxing hobby or something to help you feel a bit better. I understand its hard to motivate yourself when you feel low. Try not to be critical of how you're feeling. Sending hugs x

The last year has been awful and that's bound to have an affect on you, def worth speaking to your GP and keep reaching out for support.

Sleep is so important for mental health, it's normally my first sign something is off and I've been struggling with sleep myself for last few months too hence being here at 3am. I feel worse when I'm tired.

With an ill partner that much be hard even in normal times not just in a pandemic. Have you found anything previously that helped you sleep?

I hate the numb feeling, I would reach out to your psychiatrist see if they can tweak your meds or increase them. Ask psychiatrist not gp if your under psychiatrist. I assume you know to call on duty officer and tell them who should then bring your psychiatrist appointment forward.

Hi OP, I'm glad you posted and you're not alone. Well done for the support you are giving to your partner. Caring can be stressful and exhausting even in the best of times (and these are not the best of times!!!). I hope you can make call for a review of meds like others have suggested. Maybe you and your partner could also have a think together about little things that you can do to help make things a bit better in everyday life? Little treats. Small steps. All the best