Fucking hate this OCD!!!

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I have OCD. I hate it. I constantly double numbers. I pick my fingers until they bleed. I bite all of the skin off the inside of my lips. I need constant reassurance. Everything has to be done perfectly and I lose sleep over the tiniest of things. I criticise myself to the extent that I believe I am worthless and not accomplished. I write up to 50 lists a day. I have intrusive thoughts and constantly clench my jaw (which was so bad I cracked my tooth). I have to do things in a certain order. Have an obsession with certain numbers. I could continue but I'd be here all night. I feel utterly hopeless and I've just been put on a 9 month waiting list for treatment. Don't even know what I'm asking. I just need help.

I to suffer with ocd and it’s horrendous. I’m obsessed about something bad happening to my sister and I constantly phone to check she’s ok. It’s ruining my life! I’ve been prescribed fluoxetine which I plan to start tomorrow. Go to the gp and ask for help! That’s the first step xx

Thanks. I've had help from my gp. On highest dose of Sertraline. I can't stop obsessing over what other people think of me today. I've spent the whole morning going mad with anxiety over the fact that I'm perceived as a failure by family and friends. I'm so fixated on it and it's driving me insane.